Healing Through Motherhood – Leesun
I always thought I would be a great mum. An amazing mum.
I wouldn’t cause pain to my child, the way my mother had caused me. I would give my child everything I had craved but never received:
freedom
independence
loads of art supplies
lots of cake
self confidence
My child would be the happiest child ever. And so grateful to have me as their mum.
It was a bit of shock to find when my baby was born that it was impossible to make him be happy all the time. I suffered a lot, whenever he was unhappy. And the more I suffered, the unhappier he became.
It took me a long time to learn what a heavy burden it is, to not be allowed to feel what you feel, to be required to be happy all the time in order to make things okay for your parent.
Children don’t need to be happ...